Γ 13

Oct. 31st, 2008 01:15 pm
silk_for_calde: ('I will not fail' he told the voices)
Earth's holidays are quite intriguing; I've been reading up on them since people began speaking of Halloween. We don't seem to share most of them, in my whorl, which... well. I find myself uncertain; I sometimes feel so sure that it is the Short-Sun Whorl, and other times, it seems impossible. No mentions of Pas, or his children; and yet sometimes, I feel I glimpse the Outsider in your stories, though he goes by other names. I could spend a lifetime studying and never comprehend, and sometimes I feel the City is inclined to let me do so. If nothing else, it is a kindness that curiosity saves me from anxiety over Viron.

I have no costume, really; though I found an old robe in one of the shops here not unlike my own, so perhaps I am dressed as myself for Hallow's Even. Silk of his own whorl, not Silk of the City. Silk who'd never dream of any of the things I have seen. In some ways, I almost envy him his innocence, though I would not trade the whorl to gain it back. I thought it was odd, saying my prayers for High Hierax, some weeks ago, dressed as a layman; now, accustomed to dressing as most here do, it's strange to see the reflection of my proper self. From what I've read, black robes are not inappropriate for the holiday, though perhaps I ought to have some sort of mask, and do not. That long butcher, as some would have said, even in my own quarter. Disrespectful though that title might be, it isn't strictly a lie. I didn't really mind it.

This has been a peculiar month all together; I've found myself winged, I've found myself dancing (though not terribly well, I'm afraid; though in the end the act was well-received.) A month of transformations for the City as well, and today looks to be no different. Frightening yet fantastic. I may be a fool but I feel somehow optimistic, even now.

So, City, I wish you all a joyous Hallow's Eve; by Feasting Phaea, by Echidna, mother of the gods and patroness of the harvest; by Stygian Tartaros, whose holy shadows seem all too appropriate to the festivities, and by Highest Hierax, whose day this surely is.

[ooc: he wouldn't have been as bad a dancer as he thinks he was xD but I'm sure he was utterly bewildered by it. tags will be iffy towards evening since I'm off to the paraaade!]

Γ 6

Sep. 15th, 2008 12:18 pm
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[VIDEO POST]
[Silk is seated, presumably, in front of his computer; a large red 'T' is emblazoned on the plain black shirt he generally wears in lieu of proper augur's robes. He does not begin to speak immediately, contemplating his image on the screen, stroking at his cheek thoughtfully.]

This curse, although it encourages a kind of honesty most wouldn't choose on their own, is certainly one of the most beneficial I have heard of. It is always healthy to admit one's misdeeds to oneself and to the gods-- and, in this case, to our fellow man.

My prideful side would like to think that this stands for theodidact; but, from the reactions of others, it seems only our negative qualities are emblazoned upon us today. In some ways, I am ashamed to admit to it because of my own insufficiency; I have often felt I do not deserve the honors visited upon me by the gods. In a way, it may stand for theodidact after all; a reminder that I should trust in divine judgment, for it is certainly wrong of me to imagine that I might know myself better than they in Mainframe.

In truth, I am certain that this letter marks me as a thief. 'T' also signifies Tartaros, the patron of thieves, a god of darkness, to whom I have prayed many times for aid. We augurs wear black to honor Stygian Tartaros, so that, robed in his secrecy, we may steal amongst the gods and overhear their words. So in a sense all augurs are thieves, too; we serve Tartaros, I should say, as eagerly and wholeheartedly as the rest of the Nine, and all the minor gods as well.
I have been a thief in truth, however, though not a very good one, and only in the service of a god. The Outsider asked me to save my manteion, and I broke into a man's house to try and steal back the deed to the property. I did not succeed in regaining it; I did, however, make my way onto his property under the cover of night, gain access to his house, and, regrettably, shoot several of the great cats that guarded his grounds. I am not certain whether the cats-- lynxes, Mucor told me they were, great horned beasts-- survived. Tenebrous Tartaros heard my prayers that evening, and aided me... Although in some ways the attempt was an utter failure. However; although I have not regained my manteion yet, I believe I will, in time. Breaking into Blood's was only the beginning of my path. The gods' ways are a mystery, even to those of us who profess to know them best.
I am telling you this for several reasons. One, because honesty is always commendable, and withholding the truth only leads to evil. Two, because I believe no one can ever know the will of the gods, completely; and because, having admitted to theodidacy, it is even more important to admit my fundamental ignorance. Three, because admitting to one's sins is a part of atoning for them; a meritorious act, or nearly.

[He trails off, pausing for a moment, glancing off-screen. When he begins to speak once more, it is quieter, to himself, though audible.]

I have just thought that T could stand for traitor as well, depending on one's point of view. That is a troubling thought; I have never cared for politics, only for my manteion and the gods; and yet... I am to be caldé, when I return to Viron, if the people have their way. Overthrowing the Ayuntamiento would be treason in the Councillors' eyes, of course... But they have overthrown the Charter themselves. Surely a return to the Charter, at the behest of a goddess, Comely Kypris herself, is not treason... But it reminds me that those who would support me and those who would oppose me are brothers; all Vironese. I must stop them fighting; whether by accepting the power they would give me, or by surrendering my own person... I often wonder which it will be. And whether anything can really be done to restore the peace... [Soft sigh]

[/VIDEO]

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